Long Time, No Post

I can't believe that time has flown so fast with all of the drama I've been going through in my personal life. I've missed posting looks and swatches and being excited about makeup.

The reason that I disappeared for so long, other than having a beautiful five and a half year old that needs me and my job is that well...it seems like the bottom fell out of my life and there was no way of fixing it.

The father of my child and I had so many issues. I knew things were going south but we had been together for my whole adult life. I wanted to get counseling and fix things, he wanted something different. He eventually left me for someone he had been seeing for months behind my back. We had been together for 10 years at that point. I was upset, still am. It hurt and still does...but such as life.

I also have been getting sick frequently. I now know that I have fibromyalgia and at least that is being managed. I also have had a slew of just bad luck with becoming ill. I am actually sitting up in bed right now at 1:12am typing this while recovering from a tonsillectomy. Let me tell you, the recovery has been horrible for my 31 year old self. I had to get the surgery because I have had a horrible case of chronic tonsillitis since December and it wasn't getting better, it also caused me to battle tons of ear infections as well. I had the surgery on the fourth, last week Tuesday, and had to go to the ER for complications, hemorrhaging, infection and vomiting blood. I'm feeling a little itty bit better, but it seems as though my recovery suffered from the complications. I've just had horrible postoperative/first surgery bad luck.

It just feels as though the last few years, which doesn't seem like years at all, only a matter of a few months, have gone terribly wrong. Bad luck all around and I honestly did not see everything turning out this way...it's not what I wanted for my family, for my health or for my life in general. It's still a bitter pill to swallow, one that I've been cutting up in pieces and have yet to finish taking, nor feeling the effects of.

I'm trying to get myself to feel like me again, and getting back to this blog will help. I do my best to be the best person I can be for my child and for myself. So, I'm pushing to let go and get back into the things I love and blogging and posting looks was one of those things.

I'm going to start slowly, to ease back into things. But, my eventual goal is to post at least three times per week. I'm hoping I can do this, to not feel defeated. I will do my darnedest to get back in this saddle. I thank all of you that did not stop following my blog during this regretful absence.

-Alexis aka Morgenstern

Something special

So, since I reached 25 followers. I decided that I am going to do something special next week that follows with the holiday spirit. I bought something just for this occasion. It isn't anything too big but it is something that I picked up before it sold out. Hopefully I sort things out tonight and announce what it is tomorrow evening.

Ancient Egyptian Series: Nut

The next choice or my Ancient Egyptian Series is the Goddess Nut. Nut was the goddess of the sky. Originally it was just the night time sky but eventually she became known just as the goddess of the sky in general. She was the wife of Geb and the mother of Isis, Osiris, Seth and Nepthys.

Since she is the goddess of the sky, I chose to use blues and black. So here is the look....

Ancient Egyptian Series: Bastet

Here is another installment of the Ancient Egyptian series that I have been doing. I am trying to do this a little more regularly now. This look is inspired by the Goddess Bastet. Bastet was first depicted as a lioness or lioness-headed woman but eventually was depicted as a domesticated cat or a woman with a cat's head. She was the protector or pregnant women, domestic cats, the home and children and the goddess of music, dance, pleasure, family fertility and birth.

For this look, I was influenced by the eyes of cats. In particular, some of the beautiful eye colors that cats have. I have seen beautiful green, orange and blue eyes in various cats. So, I decided to use green, orange and a flash of a luminous color that has some blue in it. I also used black and a little purple and brown as well. Ok, on to the photos...

Almost there...Thoughts of a giveaway

So, I have been thinking. Whenever I reach 50 subscribers (I know that may be a while from now) I am thinking that I would like to do some type of giveaway. It may be a small one, but hey, something is always better than nothing. I came to thinking about this because I am a little less than hallway to that goal and I think that it would be a nice treat for those that actually stop by the blog and take a look at what I am posting or blabbing about. I will have to think of all of the kinks and rules since this is something thing I am new to, but I think it might be quite fun. I'm not sure how frequently I will end up doing them but I know for sure that I will be doing giveaways at the 50 and 100 subscriber marks. Whatever I decide after that I will for sure let you all know.

So, what do you all think of this idea? Like it? Hate it?

Ancient Egyptian Series: Anubis

Hello all! Sorry, I've been constantly busy with work and health issues so I haven't been able to post much, I am so behind on the amount that I have wanted to post. Though I haven't done many looks in my downtime anyway. I guess I will just post when I have the chance and not give myself deadlines...

Anywho...This is the look that I came up with to represent Anubis. He was one of the God's of the dead and lead the recently deceased on there journey through the underworld, he was also known as the God of death or God of the Dead. Anubis was represented as a jackal or a man with a jackal's head. His statues in his jackal form were black and parts were gilded in gold and the images of him when he had the body of a man his body was gold and his head black. Black represented death and the night and yellow was the color of gold and the sun and represented the eternal, the indestructible and the imperishable. With this look I used mostly golds, black and brown.

Posh Paradise Paint Pot Comparison Swatches

Ok, so, people were wondering about the a few paint pots being closer to two that have come out previously. In my opinion, Cash Flow tends to be more white gold compared to Treasure Hunt which tends to lean more yellow. Artifact and Idyllic are really really close but Artifact seems to be a bit more opaque (Even when built up) and more or a reddish berry compared to Idyllic, but I don't know if my photos captured that which is why I put up a few different ones. MUFE Aqua Cream #20 is a darker and more shimmery blue compared to Pure Creation so I think that one could have both.

Ok, here are the comparison swatches:

 This photo was taken without flash outside